During the times in between sessions, Joan experienced a variety of different feelings and emotions. At the beginning, she felt disconnected and felt like she was pouring concrete down her throat to push down all of her emotions and build a wall around her heart. She experienced feelings of self-hatred, unworthiness, pain and sadness. Once Joan did start connecting with her feelings, she experienced bouts of crying.
Then realisation and awareness started to kick in. Joan realised that she allowed her mother’s feelings to be more important than her own. Joan noticed that when her triggers come up, she has been able to look at them differently and not just react to them.